Wednesday, July 24, 2013

IVF #2 officially kicked off today.  It's a bit sooner than we anticipated but I'm at the mercy of mother nature.  I went for baseline ultrasounds and everything is normal and looking good.  In 2 weeks I have to donate 14 vials of blood so they can make a serum to be used for our co culture.  Being a certified needle-phob, I'm not exactly looking forward to it....then again I'm not looking forward to any of this.  Unlike most of you, I can't get pregnant for free or painfree.  It was painful writing out that five digit's even harder the second time around.  It's still incredibly difficult for me to not become angry at those who make having a baby seem so easy.

This round of IVF we are trying co-culture.  Instead of growing our embryos on the medium in the petri dish they normally use, they are going to harvest and grow my endometrial (uterine) cells.  The theory is that this will provide a more natural environment for the embryos to grow on top of....the better the embryo, the more of a chance I have of becoming pregnant.  Long gone are the simple days of having sex to get pregnant.  It's the norm for us now to associate petri dishes and uncomfortable procedures with making a about a total mood killer.   Instead of one man to make a baby, I have a whole team of them (and a few women).  Science is'll even be more amazing if this actually works this time. In about 3 weeks, I will have a biopsy to collect some uterine cells.  Biopsies are never pleasant, especially when you're awake, but it's minor compared to the rest of it.  Somehow they use my collected blood and uterine cells and grow them until time of egg retrieval.  The whole IVF process this time will take several weeks, but at least the hormone injections won't be for another month.

As of now, I'm as ready as I'll ever be.  We didn't exactly hit our financial goal and had to put some of our IVF on charge....nothing like charging a baby on a credit card.  This isn't exactly how I envisioned being in debt.  Hopefully it will work this time as I can't imagine paying monthly installments for something we don't have.  Each bill, I'd be reminded what happened....or didn't happen.  I'd much rather be saving my money for future baby-gear, day care, etc.....but this is my reality right now.  For those of you who had kids the easy thankful.  Chris and I are doing our best at holding up emotionally.  The past 6 months have by far been the hardest few months or our lives...we have good and bad days but are learning to navigate through this.  I anticipate the next few months could even be harder depending on our outcome.  Due to alot of reasons, mostly financial, we doubt there is another IVF in our future.  So much of our lives and happiness is riding on this.  I'd be lying if I didn't say I am a nervous wreck inside!


  1. Good luck! Praying for you!

  2. That sounds so cool!! I'd love to know how that works...super interested in that type of nurturing embryo's! Using your endometrial lining seems like such a better way. What clinic are you at? Are you in the states? I'm in Canada (at the Calgary regional fertility clinic) and havnt yet hear of this going on!! Best of luck....I'd love to know how it goes for you! Thinkin of you

    1. I'm in the US in Pennsylvania at Abington Reproductive Medicine in Abington Pa. Co-culture has been around for a little bit from my understanding but in the grand scheme of fertility treatments it is relatively new. Only a handful of clinics in the States use it. From my understanding it's been researched but not extensively which is why it's probably not too popular yet. It doesn't increase chances by a ton...maybe only a few percentage points. But since our clinic offers it, it doesn't cost too much (2,000), and it won't hurt our chances.... we figured why not try. Then we can say we tried everything. Again the research is mixed but from my understanding it won't harm the embryos. Thanks for the well wishes. My guess is you know how difficult this journey can be.

  3. Prayers are with you both ,love you