tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4792473402482801198.post133565055701552759..comments2023-12-26T23:38:39.516-08:00Comments on Our journey to the baby bump: before, during, and "after" infertility: Rachelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14952600064664792151noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4792473402482801198.post-44547308692657067112013-09-28T07:06:08.180-07:002013-09-28T07:06:08.180-07:00I stumbled onto your blog. Clearly where you are...I stumbled onto your blog. Clearly where you are in a very difficult place! I wish you blessings and success! <br /><br />I too have avoided FB for years now, and back-burner'ed many relationships b/c it is just too emotionally difficult for me. So I can relate 100% to creating a emotionally protected space for yourself.<br /><br />Anger, Somehow I have moved beyond that one. For me I have forced myself to look at what aspects of having a child are Truly important to me and which are not. I have found that should my IVF journey not result in a success, That (honestly) donor eggs (or adoption) while not what I had pictured in my head, can align with having the parenting experience that I value so much. Digging deep and looking at all options has lifted the weight of this process for me and brought more peace and positivity. I thought I might share, in case this process might be helpful to you. It has become easier )most days). To look for the way god wants me to receive my hearts desire and I realize that it may look the way I pictured in my head with a biological child, or it may look different. I can be more open now. It is still difficult and requires courage and openness. I do feel lots better now for several months. <br /><br />You journey will no doubt be different, but thought that i would see if sharing might upturn a nugget that may help you lift the weight you are feeling. <br /><br />Wishing you contentment, a process with a littler more peace, and ultimately success :) <br /><br />Rachel<br />Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09983302344516739429noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4792473402482801198.post-62027638948629532172013-09-11T14:25:13.372-07:002013-09-11T14:25:13.372-07:00This comment has been removed by the author.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4792473402482801198.post-47665253265546183202013-09-11T14:21:52.174-07:002013-09-11T14:21:52.174-07:00I just found your blog....and wow...so many of the...I just found your blog....and wow...so many of the same thoughts and emotions I have felt as we are past the 1 year mark in our infertility. We just had our 1st IUI and I found out it failed...yesterday. We both make a salary (combined) of around 40K a year- and just a few months back I personally knew 21 ladies who were pregnant. Talk about a slap in the face. We likely CAN'T afford IVF....ever. I know how you feel with crushed dreams and dashed expectations- only to be told or offered another solution likely minimizing your grief. My prayer is that you will find peace in the journey- and hope in the pain. I also recommend the book "Waiting for Daisy"- if you haven't already read it. Your writing style reminds me of hers....and what a journey.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4792473402482801198.post-7715248003168798172013-09-09T11:25:59.265-07:002013-09-09T11:25:59.265-07:00I have been following your blog from the beginning...I have been following your blog from the beginning and really felt the call to reply today. You have every right to be angry! Never let anyone make you feel otherwise! I pray for you (and all the other infertiles I know) every night! Those who have not gone through infertility can not begin to understand what it is like! Don't let others undermine your feelings - they are YOURS! Sending positive thoughts and more prayers your way! Melodinoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4792473402482801198.post-38192224486884007282013-09-07T13:55:52.931-07:002013-09-07T13:55:52.931-07:00I have been waiting for you to post another blog, ...I have been waiting for you to post another blog, because I have been praying for you during this time. I am still hoping to hear that you will have success and something to hope for this treatment. I hope that is still the case.<br /><br />I was talking to my therapist this morning about my anger. He asked me what was my predominant emotion during this time and I admitted to feeling angry. I have felt so angry and confused, but it has done nothing for me. It has gotten me nowhere - and it has built up walls. I'm trying to let go of my anger. If my dreams of holding my own child are shattered I will build an alternative dream from the fragments and move on-even though I will NEVER forget what I always thought I could have so easily. Even though I know I will cry and cry and cry. <br /><br />I never wanted to have to build up this strength or resilience, I have resisted all along - and it's been a bumpy and hard road. <br /><br />I am praying so hard for you. I know how bad you want a child. Just take one more step . . . and then another . . . and then another. Leave anger behind. Take another step . . . You can do it. You think you can't, but you can. I believe you can. <br /><br />You are such a strong woman. Thank you for your posts. <br /><br />Praying for you - Jillian<br />Jillhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12488538404787873110noreply@blogger.com